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So I guess it is time to dust off my blogs and get back at it.

Sadly, Doug and I ended our relationship of almost 1 year this past weekend. Unfortunately it got quite ugly and we both said some things that we regret, but he said some things that I just don’t think I can get past. It was tough to hear how he really feels and although I know he said the things he said in anger he had to be feeling them on some level.

I truly hope that he can find someone who will make him happy and be what he thinks a boyfriend should be. Five years ago our relationship would have worked because I would have been willing to change who I am to make him happy, but thankfully I am not that person any longer.

I will be fine. I’ve actually been gearing up for this for several months as we began to fight more and I saw more and more of a limitation to where our relationship could go. Doug is closeted in the majority of his life and I never realized how difficult that could be on a relationship. I hope that someday soon he can come out and be happy about it because I don’t believe he can be truly happy in a relationship until he does.

So…Miss Jackson is back on the market I guess. I went out last night with Chris and ran in to someone who gave me just the ego boost I needed to make me feel like this was the right decision.

I will always have a love for Doug that won’t die but we definately were not meant to be together at this point in our lives.

Peace!

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